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See Yourself As I Do
I wish you could see yourself the way I do, to see the beauty and not what you need to "improve." I wish you could understand that the insecurities you hold aren't waiting to unfold. Your grip on them, with white knuckles to keep them hidden, only exhausts you. They aren't trying to run away and show the world who they are. They belong to you. They were born in the back of your mind and grew up under your skin, raising the hair on your arms and the speed at which your heart b
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Nov 82 min read
Order #1264
I met up with my younger self for coffee. We agreed to meet at 10:00 a.m. She texted me at 9:55 saying she was just leaving. I replied...
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Oct 93 min read
The Ache and The Answer
Sometimes grief doesn’t just arrive, it knocks on doors that were supposed to be sealed shut. When my grandfather passed away, with his...
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Sep 74 min read
The Road
From nothing To something To the thing I was walking around a green meadow with my arms outstretched and my head held back. I wasn't...
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Jul 233 min read
Dear Me,
It’s been five months, and I’m coming to understand that there’s no time limit to grief. You feel what you feel. It’s not something to...
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Jun 101 min read
Dear Grandad,
I saw you in a butterfly today. It was a monarch. I don't know if you liked butterflies. But it looked free, and it reminded me of...
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Jun 91 min read
Must Have Been The Wind
Sitting in a field, I reached for the only dandelion there. It was aged, so its petals had turned to fluff. The wind picked up around...
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May 143 min read


Persevere
For the past few months, I’ve been living in a state of survival. Doing what must be done not because I want to, but because I have to....
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Apr 223 min read
Remember
I was travelling through a tunnel with a bright torch, lighting my path ahead and guiding me forward. Until the world around me shook and...
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Mar 92 min read
Refill, Spill, Drain and What Remains
When someone leaves, it's like they've poured out a glass of water and left. But the presence of an empty glass presses down on me. The...
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Feb 242 min read


It's Okay
It's okay to be angry. It's okay to feel rage. It's okay to be stubborn. It's okay to feel pain. It's okay to be sad. It's okay to be...
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Jan 174 min read


Let go; hold on?
When is it time to let go? How do we know when we should hold on? 2024 has been a fast moving year. It was busy, loud, nauseating,...
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Jan 22 min read


The Raindrop and the Leaf
Grief is knocking at my door again, waiting to come in. I look around to see it's almost time for her to collect another person I love....
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Dec 10, 20243 min read


Take Care
What is love? Is it the connection between a mother and her child? A bond between friends? Two people in a relationship? Is it the pride...
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Nov 13, 20242 min read


The Lighthouse
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our...
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Oct 17, 20242 min read


Hope
How is it that we have so little hope for the future? How is it that we wake up every day dreading what comes next? We wake up and sigh...
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Sep 24, 20241 min read


The Power of Overthinking
The heat of a fresh tear Was the first thing I felt Since you paralyzed me. My lungs expanding Once you released me From your choking...
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Sep 3, 20242 min read


Who Am I?
"Who are you? Tell us more about yourself." Those questions are usually exceptionally difficult to answer. Is it because I don't know...
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Aug 4, 20242 min read
Gratitude
In that moment, it became clear that the heat wasn't there to absorb me. I was there to absorb it. As a wooden spoon resting on a pot...
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Jul 1, 20242 min read
Say Yes
“Can you do this for me?” “Yes, I can.” I shouldn’t, but I feel I can’t say no. So I balance a tray on my shoulder, watching as water...
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May 21, 20242 min read
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